I Went Vegetarian for a Meal….and Hated It

I Went Vegetarian for a Meal….and Hated It

Going plant-based in the summer is tougher than I thought it would be!

Yesterday made one month vegan wooot!

It was also the first time I knowingly hopped off the plant-based wagon.

You see, the past week has been the most difficult for me. I’m not sure why, but I started to crave things like pepperoni pizza, cookie dough ice cream, cheese. My mouth watered when I made Goo a turkey hot dog for lunch one day. What was wrong with me? I’d never been a *huge* fan of meat, so I figured going vegan was going to be as simple as cutting out the things I didn’t care for. So why was I craving it? Ravenous for things like pepperoni when I barely gave it a second glance when it was “allowed?”

Was that it? Was it because I was telling myself “no”?

It got worse. I started to make mental lists of all the foods I would never eat again: ice cream on a cone at the fair, root beer floats, baked potato soup, marshmallows roasted over dying charcoals.

It doesn’t help that it’s summer, that fairs are in full-bloom, that a BBQ happens once a week, that every amusement park I go to–even just the pool–has nothing but cheese and fried meats on their snack menu.

But I also thought back to when I was pregnant. I was told that when you crave something, it’s your body telling you that you need something. That you’re deficient.

I thought about all of the foods I wanted, and I began to see a pattern. They were loaded with fat, grease, calories.

While craving these things, I had also begun to notice a constant “woozy” feeling. Plant-based food had begun to nauseate me. All food had begun to nauseate me. Which made me eat even fewer calories. It was a vicious cycle.

That had to be it. I simply needed more fat in my diet.

I listened to my body. I ate gobs of peanut butter on crackers and added oil and butter to foods to get more fat. But it just didn’t seem like enough. Was this diet really better for me? After all, the evidence on both sides of the argument is contradicting. Is there anyone I can trust to tell me the truth?

Yesterday, I wrote in my journal:

It’s a tough diet, full of foods I don’t know how to cook, and it takes a lot of work to make sure you’re getting enough of everything…I could just go vegetarian, but the whole reason I gave up milk and cheese was because I don’t agree with the practices to obtain those things. My morality, can I handle it? Can I push aside that feeling and go back to using eggs and cheese, even when I know I’m harming others to do so?

After a short talk with my husband, and a discussion on Twitter, and after reading this blog article, I began to see that vegan is only a title. A label. A word. Removing the title would free me to listen to my body, to say “I could, but I don’t want to.”

And then I did it. I pouted and said “I want baked potato soup.” So that’s what I had. Baked potato soup with a bit of cheese, and a salad, also with cheese, and ranch dressing.

I thought I would feel better afterward physically. I thought I would be able to handle it mentally. After all, I was taking care of me and that’s what’s really important, right?

But I didn’t feel like I was taking care of me. In fact, after I ate it, I just felt gross. The food wasn’t as great as I remember it tasting. Certainly not as fresh as the foods we’ve been eating. There was nothing “rewarding” about it.

And because of it, I doubled my sodium intake for the day. I just felt bleh.

I went vegetarian for a meal, and I hated it.

While I am annoyed at myself for letting the weakness get to me, I am glad I did it. I know now that plant-based is exactly where I want to be right now. I don’t really want cheese or pepperoni, I just want the freedom of knowing I could if I wanted to, but that I don’t want it. I also need to get a little more salt and fat content into my diet. Time to buy some trail mix and chow down!

And seriously, Lina, they do make vegan marshmallows. I could totally roast some on our if-it-ever-happens camping trip.

So I made it one month vegan and gave myself the ultimate test. I won’t beat myself up over it. All I can do is accept what I’ve learned and move on.

And I’ve got to remember my initial goal. It wasn’t to be a “perfect” vegan, but to be a better me than I was yesterday.

What are YOU Eating on National Junkfood Day?

What are YOU Eating on National Junkfood Day?

Apparently today is National Junk Food Day! And I’m giving myself a free pass to eat whatever I want, so long as it’s vegan.

I’m sure a lot of non-vegans are wondering if this means I’m going to fry up some tofu.

On the contrary! Here are five of my favorite junk foods that are totally vegan.

1. Chips and Salsa

I go with the standard Tostito’s restaurant style chips w/ Full Circle organic corn and black bean salsa. This salsa has a ton of cilantro, and something else (maybe lemon? lime?). Combine that with the sweetness of the corn…it’s amaaaaazing! I could devour an entire bag of chips if I have this salsa on hand.

2. Ice Cream

Yesterday, I TOTALLY FOUND ICE CREAM! I bought the chocolate chip cookie dough kind by So Delicious. Made with coconut milk, it is certified vegan. Om nom nom…

3. Popsicles

What can I say? It’s a thousand degrees outside. Outshine popsicles are great for when I’m craving something sugary and/or am melting from a few minutes out in the yard. I read through the ingredients about as thousand times, and it’s mostly fruit/vegetable juice so I’m almost certain they’re vegan.

4. French Fries

French fries are totally vegan! As long as they’re not cooked in animal fat, something I’m pretty sure most restaurants did away with. Dip ’em in some ketchup or vegan ranch. Om nom nom…

5. Pizza

I looooove Papa Johns vegan pizza. Both their crust and sauce are vegan, so I just order no cheese and load it up with veggies. Get a bunch of garlic dip (also vegan) and go to town. If you’re lucky like me, nobody else in your family will eat this pizza, so you will have leftovers!

Check out this list from Peta’s website of accidentally vegan foods.

So what are you eating for National Junk Food Day? Tell me in the comments below!

Keeping My Husband Healthy

Keeping My Husband Healthy

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He messaged me yesterday from work on Monday:

“I feel weird.”

His stomach hurt, he was nauseous and weak. He couldn’t quite explain how it felt. But I knew that feeling. It happens when I don’t get enough calories.

I didn’t make him go vegan, did not demand he give up meat because of my new lifestyle choices (it’s the same with Goo, but she was born a vegetarian. Seriously, I can’t even get that kid to eat chicken nuggets shaped like dinosaurs). However, Chris made the mistake of watching Earthlings, and has gradually decreased his meat intake ever since. In fact, according to him, he hasn’t had any meat since Friday of last week. So he’s been eating vegetarian for four days!

But while Goo will promptly grab a snack from the pantry or ask for a second sandwich at lunch, my husband is the kind of person who will forget to take care of himself. So I know he hasn’t been eating enough to make up for that lack of calories, and according to MyFitnessPal he needs to be eating over 3300 calories per day!

As soon as he came home I handed him a banana and a B12 supplement. Then I made two huge stacks of Vegan pancakes, complete with walnuts, blueberries, banana slices, and maple syrup. Chris and Goo stuffed their faces, drank soy chocolate milk, giggled about the silly dreams they had last night, and when the plates were clean my husband felt much better.

I’m all for him going vegetarian, vegan, or even continuing to eat meat, but I want him to beĀ healthy about it. And with the poor guy working ten hours a day and returning to college in a few weeks, it’s sort of my responsibility as the stay-at-home mom to make sure he has a full stomach at the end of the day.

So, if I’m going to be making all-vegan for dinner, I’m going to have to make it calorie-packed, and I’m going to have to make enough for an army. I thought it would be hard for me to reach 1600 calories. But getting him 3300????

Needless to say, I have a stack of pancakes in the freezer!

Making Sure I Get Enough B12

Making Sure I Get Enough B12

I hit three weeks vegan on Monday! Wooo! Unfortunately, last week I didn’t feel as amazing as one expects when switching over to a plant-based diet. In fact, I felt pretty bleh most of the time.

Reason number one was my Lexapro. Even just going from 20mg to 10mg made me feel awful, with the brain *shocks* and the headaches and the nausea.

Reason number two was B12, which is a vitamin not many think about when worrying over my lack of meat intake. Most talk about the protein. How you getting protein? Protein protein protein. But there are more important vitamins. Like B12.

So…what happened?

I lost my appetite. Entirely. I was no longer excited to eat fruits and veggies and quinoa. Nothing looked good. In fact, the whole idea of food kind of grossed me out. Read more

The Struggle of Feeding my Carnivorous/Omnivorous Pets

The Struggle of Feeding my Carnivorous/Omnivorous Pets

I watched a documentary called Pet Fooled the other day, and learned all that corn and wheat nonsense in Kitty’s and Howl’s dry food is not so great. It got me thinking, as Howl has been having tummy issues for the past few weeks. The following afternoon I called my vet to discuss my concern over a possible UTI–he wasn’t going potty and wasn’t drinking water–and she expressed concerns over a possible kidney issue.

What? Not my puppy!

Luckily–phew!–he did start going potty and drinking water again, but she also told me over the phone to stay away from rawhide. Especially because he eats it. Like the whole bone in an hour.

“It could bind up his system,” she said.

Later that evening I noticed the warning label on the back of certain rawhide treats, explaining that overuse could lead to gastrointestinal upset.

Needless to say I felt pretty guilty. While I’m over here eating the best foods I can find, and feeding my husband and daughter what I feel is good, healthy food, I’m feeding my dog and cat pure junk. Read more

Have a Vegan BBQ!

Have a Vegan BBQ!

It’s summer! And here in the Midwest that means it’s BBQ season (though my husband would argue that BBQ season lasts all year long).

When I first started planning what I called “The Vegan Project” on Pinterest, one of the first things I started pinning for was BBQs. Since my husband likes to grill so much, I knew I had to have recipes on-hand for side dishes and for myself. Plus, Goo is not a meat-eater (we joke that she was born vegetarian) so it was nice to have dishes she would eat as well.

Think you can’t be Vegan and have a BBQ? Think again! Here are some of the recipes I pinned to plan for the perfect Vegan BBQ. Read more